I’m being a totally rubbish blogger.
I promised an explanation last time didn’t I?
Well I have accomplished something AGAIN on my bucket list.
I’VE GOT A NEW JOB!
Well hello my darling’s welcome to April!! Sorry I’m late, had a bit of a busy weekend celebrating my delayed birthday with friends from up and down the country!! Had an amazing time and really pushed the limit to what these old bones can withstand! It was brilliant to be around old friends again and to have cuddles that I have missed for years now!
IT’S A BUCKET LIST UPDATE!!!!
Haven’t had one of these for a while so here goes. I can now cross off, another 3 possibly 4 of my items on the apocalypse bucket list. Now, for some new readers who may not have made it over to my Bucket list page yet I shall give a quick and brief description about my project.
THE APOCALYPSE BUCKET LIST
It has been foretold by the Mayans that this year shall be the end of time, with an apocalyptic end to arrive on the 21st December this year. Now being a depression sufferer, and not wanting to be medicated for it, I sought out a task to become my therapy and this is it my friends! I blog. Most weeks. And, what started out as a completely different monster, has, I feel grown into somethign that I have began to cherish. The original idea was to create a sensible, achieveable Bucket List, on a budget of NOTHING, without a job, my own home or the means to travel the world, I would create a list of things that I wanted to achieve before the world goes KABOOM. Now, my list of things may seem stupid, or meaningless, but they are all things that I have decided on the spot, If I die in december I want to have done this first.
Now, there are many people out there who will say, well why isn’t this on your list, and ‘you should go skydiving’ and ‘you need to go to this place in the outbacks of thailand’…that wasn’t what my list was about, it is more personal than that, it’s more about people than places it’s more about enlightening than extravagance. It’s my own little list, that if I manage to achieve all the items on it, I will party like it’s 1994 on the apocalyptic eve and welcome it knowing I have done my best to make myself proud.
SO WHAT AM I CROSSING OFF????
Well, there have been a few crossing offs, a few projects started and a few yet to come. I am proud to be taking down 3 possibly even 4 today!!
- “6. To document the oncoming year. (AND STICK TO DOING IT).”
- “22. To Skype The Thing more.”
- “11. Attend the Womad 30th Anniversary.”
- “31. To attend Goldie Reed’s Single Launch.”SH*T NO 5 ITEMS!!!!
- “32. Get a small tattoo. [Stop being a wimp about it.]”
SO LET ME EXPLAIN…
I have reached my 3 month mark here at wordpress, I have been documenting at least once a week for the past three months and have never been happier. In January, 131 people read my blog and I nearly wet myself! In February I spat out a whole cup of coffee when I saw that 172 people had read my blog, this month I have been entirely stunned that 1,418 people have read my blog. So crossing off number #6 was something I loved doing, because I have stuck to something that I have tried before and failed miserably at (that’s right I have had 3 other blogs all went tits up quicker than me in the ocean!)
#22 was a difficult one for me to cross off because myself and the thing are TERRIBLE communicators. He works all the hours in a day and I well ermmm, don’t…because I’m a bum. This means he is awak at stupid o clock when I am far far away sleeping like a bear! Although, we managed to actually organise seeing each other and for the first time in over a year I was able to squidgly cuddle him once again. This chance meeting has improved our texting and call accepting abilities so I feel that my #22 should have been communicate more instead of skype more!!
#11, I shall only say that this is HAPPENING!!!! and it is goign to be immense I believe the tickets have been booked now all I have to do is wait!! 🙂
#31 This event was amazing, Goldie Reed are a band of my friends. The drummer and The Guitar ace both played at my 18th birthday and the Lead Singer is the Guitarists Girlfriend and she is out of this world, I have known them for years, and I ended up attending the launch with my entire family to celebrate me and the step dad’s birthdays!!
#32….OOOOSH! BIG DRUMROLL PLEASE……..
YES I AM GETTING MY FIRST EVER TATTOO
and I will be revealing the design (nothing extravagent but very meaningful) next week whilst I’m having it done, I might take a video and post it up here for y’all to see a bucket list item in action 🙂
So that’s it, not a massively amazing, socio economic, world stopping, death defying post but one that I hope will warm your hearts and get you writing your own Apocalypse Bucket List, if you do let me know, I’d love to read them!
Happy Blogging, Cheers for Reading,
[BARE WITH THIS POST, I HAVE ADDED THIS POST-POSTING TO THIS POST…HAHA SORRY, ERMM YES, I BEGAN WRITING THIS 2 WEEKS AGO, SINCE WRITING THIS I HAVE NOT HAD A SINGLE CIGARETTE, AND SINCE STARTING THE PAPER CRANES JUST OVER A WEEK AGO I HAVE FOLDED 103 CRANES, JUST THINKING I WOULD HAVE SMOKED THAT MANY CIGARETTES IF NOT MORE, IN 7.5 DAYS, SCARY STUFF…GOOD LUCK TO ALL THOSE QUITTING SMOKING THIS YEAR, I’M REALLY GOING TO STICK TO IT THIS TIME]
1,000 Paper Cranes (千羽鶴 Senbazuru?)
“Thousand Origami Cranes is a group of one thousand origami paper cranes held together by strings. An ancient Japanese legend promises that anyone who folds a thousand origami cranes will be granted a wish by a crane, such as long life or recovery from illness or injury.”
The idea intrigues me, it made me almost cry when I watched it on Heroes, noteably one of my favourite series’ of the past few years.
Watching Charlie’s expression, when the camera zoomed out and revealed the epic amount of cranes delicately hanging by clear threads around their heads was in my opinion, utterly beautiful and actually quite stylish! Ha Ha…
Now, today has frankly been an awful day, I woke up in that highly irritating situation where your neck has been sleeping comfortably all evening, and then, suddenly, the second you wake up…AH%&$$! F*&£”~#!! …your neck trips into spasm and you can’t move for the rest of the day! anddddd I decided to start item number 20 on my Bucket List, I figured that although I have ticked a few things off the list, I’m still no closer to actually COMPLETING the list.
Item Number 20. ATTEMPT TO GIVE UP SMOKING…
Now your all probably wondering what the hell item 20 and paper cranes have in common, well it all started like this…..
So being unemployed, with no car, no money, not alot of people around during the day and a family who all smoke! (that’s right kids, Batman, The Incredibles, Poison Ivy, Misty Knight, Iron Man, WONDER WOMAN!! allllllllll of them SMOKE!) Now obviously Poison Ivy is up lá duff so has stopped smoking, but for me it was so easy to just light up a fag, puff puff puffy away all day, I would say I had a steady 20 a day deal going on, menthol rollies were to me like a warm glass of red wine of an evening, just something i enjoyed! and then the fateful day arrived….
Poison Ivy had warned me something like this may happen, and when Wonder Woman tried to give up last month, she said the same thing, there comes a point where something just snaps in your mind, and smoking just isn’t nice anymore!
Now for all those people out there screaming,’SMOKING’S DISGUSTING’ ‘IT’S GOING TO KILL YOU’ ‘YOU SMELL LIKE AN ASHTRAY’ I really don’t care, unless you’re a smoker you have no concept of how good it feels to have a fresh cup of coffee and a sneaky ciggie, or rolling a menthol and relaxing just puffing away. IF YOU ARE NOT A SMOKER YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW GOOD THAT FEELS!!! and after sex……. WOWWWWWW better than the sex before it haha.
But anyway I digress, so I was sat in the study with my tobacco rolling a cig, and it happened, something choked a little in my throat, i licked the rizla and the smell of the dry tobacco made me feel a bit icky, and as I sparked the cigarette, I was convincing myself that I wanted to become a non-smoker! (I think it helped that my pouch was now empty and I had no way of getting anymore haha!!)
Day one – Fine, 0 cigarettes
Day two – Fine, 0 cigarettes
Day three – Ok, 0 Cigarettes
Day four – Average, 0 cigarettes, stood behind woman at cashpoint inhaling her scarf it smelt so good
Day five – SH*T, SH*TE, CR*P, AWFUL, SHODDY, EURGH, CRAPOLAAA! 0 cigarettes…grrrr
Day six – Pissed off, angry, want to murder someone for £3.50 to get tobacco… 0 cigarettes
Day seven – Today…woke up, feeling refreshed, breathing (asthma) noticeably clearer, cravings minimum, 0 cigarettes…
Now….how did I do it?
Honestly, for the past week I have ranged through every emotion possible, this first week of not smoking has almost killed me, and I think its mainly due to the fact that I have nothing to cure the boredom, smoking became a habit because I was bored. It gave me something to do with my hands, the ceremony of rolling the cigarette, lighting it, inhaling and enjoying the minty smoke, sitting back and taking it in…..it takes time, its a process, its also really difficult to describe! So I had to find something to keep my hands busy, and remembering the episode of Heroes, whilst thinking about my meditation experiences of late, I thought, I bet I can make 1,000 paper cranes….that will stop me from smoking.
Now, everytime I want a cigarette I fold a piece of paper, and it can be anything, newspapers, magazines, catalogues, comic books, junk mail…anything that I can find just to keep my mind off smoking. and I can say now it’s working, being around smoke makes me feel ill, the smell makes me want to vom on their faces, and the change in myself is remarkable, it’s early days yet but here’s to crossing off another Bucket List item and to continuing on my journey.
Here’s to the SuperCranes!! May they guide me through this rough patch and grant me a blooming good wish when I’ve made 10,000 of the buggars!
Cheers for reading 🙂
Hello Everyone quick Bucket List update for you all, upon reflection during an awesome night with Batman this evening I have some new entries to make to the Bucket List, New Proper Blog Post to come tomorrow though so keep your eyes peeled for that too.
– To teach myself how to draw properly! (another regular updating me feels!)
– To try to learn a language. (preferably italian or spanish)
– Get at least a small tattoo!! (and stop being a big wimp!)
– Learn to walk in heels.
WEIGHT LOSS UPDATE!!! (eeeeek)
Now I will be blogging about this further next week BUTT I thought I would update everyone, The exercising isn’t going too bad, Zumba is killing me, and the walks are still tough as always but the ankle injury has definitely got better, so gotta step it up a notch this week!
LOVELIFE (oh christ this is deffo on the next weeks agenda)
I only went and joined a flipping Dating Site!! what am I like!, But as I have already stated on the Bucket List, I do want to go on more dates, so fingers crossed I don’t meet a nutter and possibly meet a good guy, need a prince to come along before that dastardly apocalypse, need someone to pull me from the global warming caused wreckage eh?
Anyhoo this was just supposed to be a ‘quickPress’ haha!
Blog Ya Soon!